missin you

last night, I realized how much i missed you sweetness...you're like a piece of me which i can't seem to live without. Now that you're back, i'm finally complete

the promise

for a lack of anything else to watch, i ended up tuning into a local channel at 8pm earlier and of course, i watched what they were playing during the timeslot...

it was a local movie which starred richard gutierrez and angel locsin, i'm sure alot of people would know who they are and would know that the film was shown a few years back already. like what i said, i was pretty damn bored and had no other options. what better way to spend my Friday evening than to watch "The Promise"

the title, as most people would think, actually spoils the whole story. the usual plot of two childhood sweethearts who grew up together and fell for each other and made a promise to stay with one another no matter what. it's the usual against all odds or more like against all the bitches and assholes around you kinda thing. man, it's the same story over and over again, Filipino writers have this obsession of placing a love triangle element in every kilig movie they make. i'm not sure whether they are deliberately turning moviegoers off or they've been stuck in the sampaguita films loveteam-loveteam era. o well, beats me. like what they say; "kanya-kanyang trip lang yan, walang pakialaman" hahaha

hmm, the moral of this whole entry is to just sleep and not turn into a couch potato during a Good Friday. i've learned my lesson, next holy week, i'd prolly stack up on some reading materials and just prop on my bed to read instead of switching my tv on or better yet, i'll listen to senti songs til my ears bleed out. teehee

ok, ok. i hafta confess. as much as i was bashing the film. i couldn't help but somehow love some parts of it. these are basically the times that the stars were kissing each other. reminds me of my own little "moment" with by bf. man, where are you when i need you sweetness? *hint, hint*

visita iglesias

today, i spent the whole day with my family...going around different churches, in a Catholic tradition which they call visita iglesias





it was really hot and humid outside. but even if that was the climate set out, we saw a lot of people outside and fulfilling their catholic devotion. albeit, going to 14 churches in 1 whole day and praying in each is very exhausting, i'd have to say that this is one of the best days ever. I get to enjoy being with my family (nanay, tita, cuzins and pamangkins) and at the same time, practice my religion. it was all worth it.

i had fun seeing all those churches and the different types of altars that they have, not to mention the sculpture of saints or religious icons enclaved in them. you get to see the cultures set out in each place by looking at how their church is made. you also realize that despite the throngs of problems facing our country now, Filipinos are innately faithful to the higher being, they never lose hope and devotedly pray, for what, i really don't know

well, everything would have been much better if you were here sweetness, i tried not to think too much of you and be happy that you're enjoying your stay there in dubai but i guess, i can't help it. there were just some things that I encountered which immediately reminded me of you:
1. we passed by libis, I saw the warehouse & the lot there at the intersection, of course I'd remember you here...
2. my cuzins bought kutsinta which they decided to name after you, it's a long story, i'll tell you when you get back
3. i passed by a church which was selling puto bumbong at 5 in the afternoon, man, this was so rare but none the less, i remembered how you liked this and me liking bibingka instead
4. my nephews forced me to play a car racing game in PS2, i chose a car to use and what do you know, i had to choose a white mazda... talk about coincidence, right? Hell, no!of course, i had to choose this brand coz it reminded me badly of your car *sigh*


i guess, what i'm trying to say is that my holy week could've been much better, if you were here and we were doings religious things together....o well, there's always next year.hopefully, we get to do visita iglesias already, mwah!

cringin at the idea

don't you just hate it when your mobile phone dies down on you right at the very instant that you need it?

that's an overstatement in my case...i mean, afterall, it's just my BF leaving for dubai who wants to say buhbye to me on the other line...as if that matters, right?

Argh! of course, it does...i friggin hate this day!

talk about piss me of day today huh? well, you can say that again.I am oh so stressed out with work. i just friggin hate it when some people do not have foresight on things and do not plan out on what's ahead. all they seem to do is just make decisions outa thin air and cram to death. yup,our office pips are like that.they don't seem to know the word Long Term...all they do is think highly of themselves and act like smarty-pants when in truth, they're a bunch of lazy-asses who spend half of each day loitering around.man, if i could just turn losers into frogs, i'd prolly fill one pond right now.

i tried to end this day as quietly as possible but that's not gonna happen in this lifetime. I had to attract bad vibes the whole day...they keep coming at me like there's no tomorrow. whew, i barely had time to go to the bathroom

the only thing which kept me going was to look forward to talking to my bf. he went to Dubai today for a vacation with his family and as much as I want to just talk to him for this day, i couldn't. well, this is for the plain reason that I have work and i couldn't just hog the office phone to myself. I didn't have the luxury of doing so.

He went to the airport at around 4pm and we had this agreement that he'll be calling me at the time he was boarding the plane already, i did try to wait for his call but I got darn hungry that's why i decided to ask Sheryl to go to mcdo at galeria to eat. that was around 5:30. I was about to go home and i decided to call our house to tell them where i'll be going, so they won't get worried or something and also to tell them that i'd just call them if they'll be fetching me from my bldg. And so, i did call but apparently,nobody was answering so i then proceeded to text my mother but since this was my "lucky" day, just as my ,message was sending...my phone blinked and died

yes, i loved how that melodrama of my phone dying happened...and how i went around asking if anybody had a motorola charger but as expected, 3/4 of the population had a nokia. great? right?

i was extremely exhausted and tired and i had no ounce of strength left to salvage my phone from it's condition so i then decided to just proceed to mcdo and eat. I tried to borrow She's phone to text my mother or even my bf but she had no credits anymore, so all my efforts to actually contact any of them failed...

at this points, i really had to give up. i had an uber-ly long day and all i wanted was to eat fries to comfort myself and someone to talk to because i was feeling really, really frustrated

she was a willing companion, she was nice and actually witty, compared to other office pips (bashing ey?hahaha)and mind you, if i'm utterly disappointed and had alot to rant about regarding this day, she had more....so much more in the past 6 months she's been a part of our company. wow, talk about bonding time for us--> a discussion on the downside of office life with OLD and SENILE people

i got home around 8-ish already and of course, as expected, tons of questions (from my mother, who else) flew towards me as i opened our door. thank god, i had a good excuse on why i was roaming around the mall on a Holy Wednesday and she accepted it immediately. i really had no time to argue on anything, let alone explain my actions whatsoever

my mother then told me that my bf called our house before he boarded the plane and he sounded damn worried that i wasn't home yet and that the last message he got from me was a text saying i was low on battery...

i'm sorry sweetness, i'm sorry for not being there when you called, i'm sorry for not being able to talk to you before you left for dubai, i'm sorry for being selfish today...i was just friggin damn tired with everything,prolly with everyone...i wanted time on my own

it's gonna be quite awhile since i'll next talk to you and i wanna bash my head on the wall for not being able to talk to you before you left coz now that i'm cooped up in my room, listening to either hip-hop/r&b, senti and even to souljaboy crank that,all i can think of is you

well, ok, i thought it's gonna be fine, i won't miss you coz it's just a couple of days...hell,im revoking my statement... I'm missin you so bad right now

it's almost 1 in the morning here in the Philippines and i'm still up, i guess i'm waiting for our phone to ring and the screen to show your number and to hear your very familiar voice when you say "hello"

it ain't hap'nin tonight...i think ima cry...f*ck!

and so i correct myself, yesterday tops all days...

yesterday was the most important day for my boyps,well, it's the day that he was brought into the world...and mind you, i wish i could transport back in time and see how that went out exactly.hmm, makes me wonder if he was one of em cry babies (i mean, literally) hehehe

hmm, i haven't been blogging here in awhile.i have been busy lately, juggling work and more work in my daily existence. it seems like i've been working my butt off for the past weeks and man, it is really exhausting. my bf should know that of all people, i've slept on him more than twice and gawd, it was very embarassing to learn that you've slept on your special someone and that as hard as he tried, he couldn't wake you up even if he got mad like crazy already. hey, don't point the blame on me, it's the office people...they're at fault. hahaha. and here i go again passing the blame. o well, i guess "nagpapalusot ako" coz i want to escape the wrath of my boyps who's been tired this past weeks saying "oi, gising na" in his more than average voice volume.

if i can only order my eyes to not close and wake up for most of the time I talk to him, i would. but of course, that's not possible. it's my body clock, you see?It's really hard when you grow older each year, things don't work out like how you were used to.ok, ok, I admit...I am getting old. it's not like everybody else doesn't, right?it's fun when you age but sometimes when you actually think about how your life has been in the past years that you've been alive, it makes you wonder whether you're living a fruitful one or not.

most of us might want to change some moments that have transpired in their life but me, in all honesty, i don't. whatever experiences i've encountered, i never regret.they made me into who i am, they made me the tough cookie that i have become...

last night when I was about to go to bed (again...haha), i thought to myself that i would never forget all the happy moments i had with my boyps on the most special day of his entire life:his birthday...

again, i just want to greet you Happy Birthday sweetness, you've made a difference in this girl's not so extraordinary life.mwah!