quatro

sometimes i wish i wasn't this way...avoiding all that's right in front of me, thinking that by doing so, everything will be erased and i'll just have a goodnight's sleep

unfortunately, it's been the 4th day that i have been "hibernating" in my room, listening to all the upbeat music that i can find and decisively hiding from the whole world...and yes, it's been day number 4 of my unending quest for sleep

in as much as i want to lie flat on my back and shut my eyes, forget a day's rundown of events, i can't seem to bring myself to do so

well, it's not like i'm thinking so much about you know what but it's just that i realized that i have been up and about because nothing's on my mind. for some miraculous reason, it's just empty...like a blank space hovering above me...admittedly, this is scary

it seems like i'm starting to get numb from everything and i'm not sure if this will be good for me or even from him..

relapse

yup, you're right, my life is 1 big chunk of a mess compared to yours. But you know what's funny? If I had a choice, I still won't trade it with yours

You might be equipped with all the money in this world but that doesn't cover up your sorry-ass excuse for an existence. Cash can't buy you freedom and yes, I almost forgot, your balls back...

sometimes...everything's just not right

well, talk about long time, no see...the last time I've actually visited this blog, MY very own blog, was like ages ago. Yet, here I am again, posting my first ever post for the year 2011.

it's been awhile since i've last seen you bloggie and alot has happened. when i say ALOT, i would mean it's more than many and I can assure you, you're in for one hella ride

honestly, i'd like to tell you everything that's going on with me right now but as of the moment, it seems like i'm lost for words and i really don't know why

maybe, it's the heat that's draining me of my energy or maybe something else, something far very complex that that I can't point my nose into

all i know that as of this very minute, i feel so empty...i feel so alone amidsts a sea of confusion and wondering....sorry, told you, my brain's no good right now, i'm just wallowing in disappointment, just bear with me

anyway, if something comes up, i'll try to visit here again and share...

for now, toodoodles!