i have always been planning to blog since two weeks ago but i have been defeated with the common tiredness after working kind of decease. the title of my blog reflects what i've been going through within this whole period...
NO, i'm not resigning from work whatsoever. it's not me, it's actually my boss. she's migrating to Canada with her family and i guess, that'll be good for her. Although, i can't help but be sad about it. i've just been recently transferred to my department and i'm actually in the 'honeymoon' period and honestly, i've been doing so well working with her. alot of bad impressions have been passed around by the common office chismosos and chismosas about my boss and before moving to her department, i was afraid that it might be true but she has proven them wrong. she's really a kind, supportive and INTELLIGENT boss. when you get to work with her, you'd realize why she got hired and why she replaced the old marketing head of the group. i am in the process of warming up to her because in the short span of time that i've known her, i'd realize that i am really learning something and i'm beginning to appreciate the numerics of every project that we have to roll out. too bad she can't stay long but i'm happy for her, afterall, it is Canada who's waiting for her out there. who can top that?
about the reunion part, last weekend, i was able to get together with some old friends that i have. it's been ages since we've last seen each other and what do you expect with a bunch of gurls getting together for an overnight? why, overflowing stories, of course. i can't believe it's been years already since i last saw them. it was a weekend filed with catching up and reminiscing. it's just disappointing that two of my friends didn't get to join. i guess, they're far busier than we are. o well, at least i get to have some piece of mind and rest for awhile during those times that i was with them. i just wish we can do this again...probably out of town :)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
another sunday
i'm in my room again, loungin about. as usual...
i realized earlier that it's almost the 4th week of September and next thing you know, it's already the start of October and then, it's Christmas once more. Man, i can't believe how time flies. i mean, seriously, it's like you just regularly get into your own thing each day, go to work, eat lunch, go home, close your eyes, sleep and what do you know, months are passing by and the year's ending. sometimes, it makes me wonder if i've done enough for this year, if my life has been fruitful or not so much and whether i've been productive or just plain bumming around. hmm, trying to reminisce about this year on how i've been actually answers that question.
seriously, i can't point out on what direction i'm headed here. it's like im merely going with the flow of what's there and trying to get through each day. i feel like there's not much excitement this 2008 for me. ok, except that i finally did get a bf this year, maybe that's one of the highlights that i have but for the rest of it, kinda ho-humm, to say the least.
i started my relationship this january and all's goin smoothly with me and my "boo", nothing to worry about there...as for work, what more can i ask?i do marketing, i have a good job post(anybody my age would definitely love what i'm doing), i get a nice paycheck every month and then there's my fam. hey, like what i said in a previous entry, they're not a bunch of lunies but just the way i like em. fun, fun, and more fun. oh, of course, they are understanding too
anybody reading this blog would probably get a bucket of water and pour it over my head for blabbing on things that are not problematic at all. the philippines is already in hot water as it is and most fillies' are wondering when their next meal would come and here i am ranting on how non-exciting (yet wonderful) my life is. guess, i'm basically getting drowned out with my everyday agenda and i'm not getting enough challenge. if i can only figure out what the next great adventure is for me...maybe, and that's a big maybe, that's when i'll stop this utter nonsense
i realized earlier that it's almost the 4th week of September and next thing you know, it's already the start of October and then, it's Christmas once more. Man, i can't believe how time flies. i mean, seriously, it's like you just regularly get into your own thing each day, go to work, eat lunch, go home, close your eyes, sleep and what do you know, months are passing by and the year's ending. sometimes, it makes me wonder if i've done enough for this year, if my life has been fruitful or not so much and whether i've been productive or just plain bumming around. hmm, trying to reminisce about this year on how i've been actually answers that question.
seriously, i can't point out on what direction i'm headed here. it's like im merely going with the flow of what's there and trying to get through each day. i feel like there's not much excitement this 2008 for me. ok, except that i finally did get a bf this year, maybe that's one of the highlights that i have but for the rest of it, kinda ho-humm, to say the least.
i started my relationship this january and all's goin smoothly with me and my "boo", nothing to worry about there...as for work, what more can i ask?i do marketing, i have a good job post(anybody my age would definitely love what i'm doing), i get a nice paycheck every month and then there's my fam. hey, like what i said in a previous entry, they're not a bunch of lunies but just the way i like em. fun, fun, and more fun. oh, of course, they are understanding too
anybody reading this blog would probably get a bucket of water and pour it over my head for blabbing on things that are not problematic at all. the philippines is already in hot water as it is and most fillies' are wondering when their next meal would come and here i am ranting on how non-exciting (yet wonderful) my life is. guess, i'm basically getting drowned out with my everyday agenda and i'm not getting enough challenge. if i can only figure out what the next great adventure is for me...maybe, and that's a big maybe, that's when i'll stop this utter nonsense
Saturday, September 13, 2008
poles apart
i was never a fan of drama nor i have been emotional in any of my entries here but this time, i've reached the brink...
tonight was supposed to be memorable, i really wanted you to be a part of what i was doing with my family. i thought everything was ok but in the end, it all just came tumbling in front of me. it was quite stupid of me to think that you'd be mingling with my family and all will just be fine as it should be or it will turn out as what's normal for a boyfriend or a girlfriend kinda thing. I guess I was wrong. well, for readers here, don't get the impression that my family's psycho infested or that everybody has gotten out of rehab. it's nothing like that. my family's the typical, all-Filipino brood who loves to eat, hang around with each other and has a past time of joking and laughing. maybe, that's the problem...if you look at them, they're too simple, they're quite fine with how life is for them. maybe that's the clincher, they don't meet up to some people's standards, maybe they don't meet up to YOUR standards.
Tonight's confrontation has left me tight lipped and really lost for words. it also made me realize that there is such a thing as the clock striking "midnight" and that all fairy tales don't necessarily go as planned. maybe you're a prince but i'm no princess. i'm cool with how my life has been for the past 25 yrs of my existence. i never asked for anything more, i never craved for lavishness or what not. my family's been there for the longest time and hasn't it crossed your mind that i would never be this way if it wasn't for them. i was molded by the affection that they have showered and they have supported me with all my decisions eversince. this is why it pains me that you get "annoyed" (as how you put it) because you can not sink it in how we're so different from each other.
maybe you're right, we are. it never bothered me. i never got worried about that fact until right now. i tried blocking it out of my system, tried thinking that it didn't really matter because no matter what, you'd still love me for me. but slowly, i'm beginning to have doubts whether you can take me in wholly. whether you're into this relationship because you do love me because it's what your heart beats or if you're just fascinated by the thought that i'm different from the rest. a simple fascination that would eventually fade out.
no, i'm not mad. i don't even have the strength to feel anger at all. i feel like my strength leaving me and it's not because i'm sick...it's like things fading into the background and nothing more.
i wish we could have talked before you left but you we're in a hurry. i just tried to understand you. i always do, even if sometimes, i'm not even sure if it's still right. i wanted to say thank you for "bearing" with my family but a lot of things were running through my head already. how can someone act cool, casual and all smiley with people that he doesn't even like?how can you act so normal when it wasn't. you should have just told me outright and then, i could have just saved you from the pains of being with my family. i guess they're a handful...that's just how they are.
none the less, i would still like to take this opportunity to say thank you for joining our family dinner. i know that it was such a hassle on your part and it has taken you so much effort in being there. next time, i would probably just leave you out of it. maybe that's the best thing to do...
tonight was supposed to be memorable, i really wanted you to be a part of what i was doing with my family. i thought everything was ok but in the end, it all just came tumbling in front of me. it was quite stupid of me to think that you'd be mingling with my family and all will just be fine as it should be or it will turn out as what's normal for a boyfriend or a girlfriend kinda thing. I guess I was wrong. well, for readers here, don't get the impression that my family's psycho infested or that everybody has gotten out of rehab. it's nothing like that. my family's the typical, all-Filipino brood who loves to eat, hang around with each other and has a past time of joking and laughing. maybe, that's the problem...if you look at them, they're too simple, they're quite fine with how life is for them. maybe that's the clincher, they don't meet up to some people's standards, maybe they don't meet up to YOUR standards.
Tonight's confrontation has left me tight lipped and really lost for words. it also made me realize that there is such a thing as the clock striking "midnight" and that all fairy tales don't necessarily go as planned. maybe you're a prince but i'm no princess. i'm cool with how my life has been for the past 25 yrs of my existence. i never asked for anything more, i never craved for lavishness or what not. my family's been there for the longest time and hasn't it crossed your mind that i would never be this way if it wasn't for them. i was molded by the affection that they have showered and they have supported me with all my decisions eversince. this is why it pains me that you get "annoyed" (as how you put it) because you can not sink it in how we're so different from each other.
maybe you're right, we are. it never bothered me. i never got worried about that fact until right now. i tried blocking it out of my system, tried thinking that it didn't really matter because no matter what, you'd still love me for me. but slowly, i'm beginning to have doubts whether you can take me in wholly. whether you're into this relationship because you do love me because it's what your heart beats or if you're just fascinated by the thought that i'm different from the rest. a simple fascination that would eventually fade out.
no, i'm not mad. i don't even have the strength to feel anger at all. i feel like my strength leaving me and it's not because i'm sick...it's like things fading into the background and nothing more.
i wish we could have talked before you left but you we're in a hurry. i just tried to understand you. i always do, even if sometimes, i'm not even sure if it's still right. i wanted to say thank you for "bearing" with my family but a lot of things were running through my head already. how can someone act cool, casual and all smiley with people that he doesn't even like?how can you act so normal when it wasn't. you should have just told me outright and then, i could have just saved you from the pains of being with my family. i guess they're a handful...that's just how they are.
none the less, i would still like to take this opportunity to say thank you for joining our family dinner. i know that it was such a hassle on your part and it has taken you so much effort in being there. next time, i would probably just leave you out of it. maybe that's the best thing to do...
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
china-town
i didn't literally mean chinatown in my title, it's more like i'm pertaining to the real china coz my bf's there right now. he just called me earlier, he's in hongkong already.man, i miss him, i miss it when he makes kulit to me but today, he's not there coz he suddenly had a business trip...
o well, hope he had fun...
although i'm not sure if i can stay up late to wait for him to come home.hay, the perils of having a boyfriend. kudos to those girls who devote themselves into their relationships :)
o well, hope he had fun...
although i'm not sure if i can stay up late to wait for him to come home.hay, the perils of having a boyfriend. kudos to those girls who devote themselves into their relationships :)
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