my nose

well, suffice to say, i'm quite pissed with my nose right now...it's been clogged since like forever and i absolutely hate the feeling of stuffy-ness and irritation but i am actually scared, it's been a week already and it's still the same,haven't changed a bit

maybe, i'm not giving myself enough rest.dang!

roots

hmm,i'm feeling a mix of sleepiness, drowsiness and my strength leaving me right now and yet i'm still up. loungin about, waiting for my bf, online and listening to hip-hop (of course, including RnB) like there's no tomorrow. afterall, i am a hip-hop fanatic what-not (wattap dawg?)but not to the point of underground... you know, lately, i've so engrossed with work that i don't have time to stop and eat a "wonderful" lunch anymore. all i do is stay in field and wait for my next meeting, not to mention brainstorm til my brains blow out. man, i didn't know that being transferred to my so to speak "dream job" would be very TIRING.ok, it might sound like i'm cranky about it but frankly, i'm not. i ain't complaining whatsoever, i guess i'm basically exhausted from all the brainstorming that i've been doing. if you only knew how "diminished" some companies are in terms of ideas... boy, have i got stories to tell you. it would make you wonder where the philippines is heading to... with the number of nobodies out there pretending to be the "it" person and yet all they know is to bask in their vanity. dang! probably i'd be earning alot now if i had a peso for every person i meet who's like that.whew...today has gotten me really pissed, weirded out and very much defeated. if i can only take like a week of vacation, i would have been in the sandy shores of boracay by now sipping iced tea or mango shake while watching the sun set...hay, kung pwede lang sana... (fu*k all my meetings!) :P

missin you guys

while i'm listening to this song by carol banawa (STAY) which I think some of you might think is oh so mushy, i am currently on the ym with my bestfriend who's in Dubai. well, for those pips who don't know, she's there for work and not leisure. enuf being said, i really am feeling a little bit sad right now. hell, I can blame the rain coz it brings out the depression in me or prolly my bf who's fast asleep at this instant with his very clogged (cute) lil nose but no, it's not of that sort...i just think that my life has been packaged in a different way now compared to what it was before. no, don't get me wrong, i don't regret finding the "love of my life" and spending every time ( i can find) with him and leaving the bliss of singlehood. it's just that maybe, i miss a part of me when i was still on my own, thinking that i don't need a relationship to complete my existence, those days when the only reason i was out is to meet up with my HS buddies or college friends or sometimes even mixed ones to just hang out at starbucks, Eastwood or just at B2's house and chat the night (or perhaps the early morning) away. I miss the moments wherein we hang at a particular bar at Eastwood either to party the night (up to morning) or prop up and sit at the cashier's area outside to people watch or eat early morning buffet meals and reminisce about past events...

it's been quite awhile since I've seen you guys (you know who you are) we've crossed different paths since 2004 but the times we've had is still kept up inside me. sometimes, i wish that i could just turn back time and go back to our "younger years" when everything was still the same and we were not reduced to "growing up"... i guess that's just wishful thinking on my part...

well, i'm lost for words

it's a sunday again and tomorrow's the start of the week...i guess, it's supposed to be all's well that ends well, right?maybe for some of us but for me, it's quite a mixed of everything. i am, afterall, at lost for words at this very instant... :(