zambales mangoes

by the time you're reading this post, these ultimately delicious and very SWEET zambales mangoes are gone and inside me, my nanay, my cousins', my nephews and nieces' stomach or somewhere else...it's up to you to think where. ehehehe

anyway, my boyps went to his outing and I asked him to bring me pasalubong and of course he did. it's just that i didn't think he'd take me seriously when i told him to bring me "1 kaing ng mangga sweetie ha? if not, wag ka ng bumalik ng manila". i mean, seriously, i was just KIDDING. regardless whether he'd bring me something or not, i'd still love him like crazy. it's actually touching to see how much he cares and whenever he shows it to me...

this makes me think of how time passed by and has brought me my wonderfully-lovable bf. it's funny how you sometimes think that you'd age alone, single but happy and that you'd never need a guy in your life and then the next thing you know, your out going for a cup of coffee with a complete stranger who'd end up as a person who'll play an important role in your life.

some twist of fate huh? i guess, life has a way of making you realize that everything's not always gonna go as planned, right sweetness? *wink*

unfinished entry

i was supposed to blog last night but it never did push through because I finished talking to my bf at almost 2 in the morning already...

it's a long story but to cut it short, needless to say, we had a huge fight. as in to the point of splitting up and parting our ways kinda fight ah. everything was really tough but i'm now happy coz we actually patched things up and he's in Zambales right now partying the night away and i'm here at home moping around COZ IM MISSING HIM LIKE CRAZY (crap, sweetie, if you do not bring me 1 kaing of mangga as pasalubong,lagot ka sakin!!!!grrrr...)

well, just in case, you're all wondering why the title of this blog is set as "unfinished entry", there's a very good explanation for it. i have composed something already and was about to end my piece yesterday when my boyps suddenly decided to call me and say sorry for being a jacka**, so as it turned out, i didn't get to post my REAL entry for last night. just for the heck of it and since i feel like i need to put justice to my writing prowress, i'm actually still posting it here...so, my beloved readers, co-bloggers or my one and only fan, my bestfriend, enjoy reading:

I TRIED...YOU FAILED ME...
all i wanted was for you to let me in but all i got was a tight lip answer of "wala" which drove me around the bend and beyond my patience...

i know you too well, for me not to know that something's up and you're bothered crazy yet you chose the path of keeping it to yourself, leaving me behind the wall of defenses that you've built

for crying out loud, i'm your girlfriend. I AM NOT THERE TO JUDGE YOU. On the contrary, I'm here to listen and understand each and every moment that you feel down and whenever you think that everybody has abandoned you

this night has turned into the usual scenario of phone receivers' clicking and the murmurs of "bye" hardly heard over the ruckus of dogs barking in the background and it has left me really exhausted. i've shown you how persistent I am in trying to help you sort out your thoughts and share them with me but time and again, you have denied me that privilege of showing you how much i care. you chose to shoulder things,ALONE...

you texted me how things aren't going your way and that the last thing you'd wanna hear is a tale on other people's success, how would have I known that me telling stories on what happened during my whole day would be nightmare for your ears? i am merely being my same old, bubbly, energetic self and what do i get? a flat breathe of air on the other line

as much as i want to help you, you better start helping yourself...

nobody's asking you to be perfect. i am not. this world is already filled with less than perfect humans trying to act like mr. or ms. know-it-all. we do not need another one. what we need is someone who's true and someone who can be himself...what i need is someone i know...someone whom i can be with

sabaw

i've been hella busy lately and have turned into this monstrous workaholic that i didn't even know i had the tendencies of becoming...

i've neglected my bf, not to mention my EYES, these past few days and this has erupted into a constant bickering between us. as much as i want to avoid scenarios like this, i had no choice but to be caught up in this "ugly sitch".i mean, seriously, i must admit...i've been so engrossed in my "running-around-the-whole-of-metro-manila" lately that i failed to see that i was being eaten up in this ugly fact of life called WORK. ok, ok, excuse my cynicism but hey,i'm sure most of you can relate to me when it's about this topic

hmm, haven't really got much to say. all i wanted to do was to somehow write about the latest updates on me. but true enough, like how i've been recently...i'm dead tired right now, my mind is turning into 1 big blob. i have tons to say and its brewing inside my head, if i can only organize my thoughts into something substantial....damn...