who do u tell?

i'm crying not because i'm sad but coz i'm tired, utterly tired from everything... the bickering and arguing that we've done about your ex today has driven me exasperated. i tried not to be but what has transpired tonight has gotten me thinking way more than i should

you kept on saying that i do not give you trust because i have been constantly pointing out that texting with your ex (for whatever reason, even to say goodbye) and keeping your photos together in your wallet is quite irritating. yet, you keep on defending your actions and have told me that i should understand you. i did, i have and i still am...even if every inch of my body is shouting no.

i trust you more than you can imagine. isn't that what i have shown you in the past months of this relationship. have i not shown you more than enough understanding that any woman can give her boyfriend? i will not cite situations nor point fingers but all i know is that i've done all that i should have as one half of this relationship

u tell me upfront i do not listen to you...now,i'm reverting the question back: do you listen to me?

i'm not jealous nor i'm chasing shadows of your past, i don't even insinuate that you've been unfaithful to me. all i wanted from you was a little respect. maybe, you still don't get it, maybe you're still in this whirlpool of thoughts that this is nothing but something petty and nonsense. it's not...to me

i tried to brush it off, i tried to hide my feelings about the matter of your ex but i can't anymore. what you've shown me earlier broke me into pieces that you will never know. i've put down my pride and tried to talk but you refused me the privilege of doing so. maybe, it's the other way around. it's you who doesn't understand, you do not know what i'm going through

as i try to sleep, i will mentally rewind images of what tonight was about and as much i don't want to remember, i highly doubt i'll forget every bit of the melodrama that was played out

i won't forget most of the things you uttered today, maybe you were right...

who do u tell?