quatro

sometimes i wish i wasn't this way...avoiding all that's right in front of me, thinking that by doing so, everything will be erased and i'll just have a goodnight's sleep

unfortunately, it's been the 4th day that i have been "hibernating" in my room, listening to all the upbeat music that i can find and decisively hiding from the whole world...and yes, it's been day number 4 of my unending quest for sleep

in as much as i want to lie flat on my back and shut my eyes, forget a day's rundown of events, i can't seem to bring myself to do so

well, it's not like i'm thinking so much about you know what but it's just that i realized that i have been up and about because nothing's on my mind. for some miraculous reason, it's just empty...like a blank space hovering above me...admittedly, this is scary

it seems like i'm starting to get numb from everything and i'm not sure if this will be good for me or even from him..